fitveggielife

I’m done smiling.
Tired of trying.
I’m tired of faking. 
Always taking

Bad directions.
Spectacular trees,
The sky and sea
Keep lying to me.

Sparkly gems 
Stop pretending 
it’s good luck get-ting
bit-ten. Cursed

feelings are
Heavy and
suffocating,
stuck replaying– 

Do you remember when?
You followed me 
to my room–Leaning in.
I didn’t want to 

Remember the 
spanking
hitting 
screaming

Whenever I’m crying–
It’s bad,
Wrong
And insulting!

Objectified and told– 
How do I not hold on?
To the pain of being ignored,
Sleepless nights

Given to me
Sinking, give it to me
Crying out stop, 
But you won’t BELIEVE

Until later on
when What You’ve Done
catches up with you
For smiling at me.