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Patches
If life is such a rare gift, why do I spend so much of it afraid? Pull over andlying there, dead, a vehicle designed to hurry now! Some sugar factory, honeybee, flower mother, servicing. hawks circlea maze in the skyover the landscape, tear-filled eyes. world that made me,flashing in sequence,feet running on pavement. What if… Continue reading
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Many Things
The lamp is lit.The dog–come now.Efficient government,conspiracy to disregardReality. Things I’ve been struggling with:afraid of the sharp,familiar and careful,Failures appearingfull of Potential. I’m sharing with you–image &sensation,Burned holes and Absence.Freeing, a dance with The heater,The candle,The incense,The dog. I’m scared–I’m strange–I love. I see. Continue reading
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Daily Exorcise
I’m done smiling.Tired of trying.I’m tired of faking. Always taking Bad directions.Spectacular trees,The sky and seaKeep lying to me. Sparkly gems Stop pretending it’s good luck get-tingbit-ten. Cursed feelings are Heavy andsuffocating,stuck replaying– Do you remember when?You followed me to my room–Leaning in.I didn’t want to Remember the spankinghitting screaming Whenever I’m crying–It’s bad,WrongAnd insulting! Objectified and told– How do I not… Continue reading
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My Love
Take me by the hand.Eyes adoring.Moving slowly,Please?Take me away from here.Again & again.Turn me from dyingInto ignition.OhNo Continue reading
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play with me
running awayflip, flop lost a shoeclip, clop coming for you,can’t stop hacked in twochip, chop red blood flewdrip, drop— down,down,down, in thebasement your pieces plop! Continue reading
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On Being Human
Joy stained with sadness. Spreading. Searching in the mirror: Hello and goodbye, hello–echo–hello! Goodbye, goodbye. Internal guard. Distracting. Defensive. Avoiding what happened before… Faltering. A puddle. A wrinkle of sadness in everything, for in your noticing is its ending–begin and end, begin and end–what happens in between the beginning and ending? Peace into pieces. Or… Continue reading
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Lying in a Bed of Ants
I brought a large blanket and laid it out. I sat down and began thinking—about nothing in particular, nothing of interest. It was more of a noticing: green clouds of pond growth blooming to the surface, a swan bobbing for fish, trees, light green and white, shimmering in the wind, a blue sky. There was… Continue reading
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Already Full
The cup spills over from beneath the spigot. Moments spent receiving, while I keep track. Waiting for something to happen. Buying time. Pretending to pretend,I know what I’m doing. The cup remains, overflowing. Receiving, figuring—just give me a moment. Something comes next…But, wouldn’t I rather not? Shaking, I remove the glass from the endless outpouring andput it to my… Continue reading
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Served Cold
Fear. You son of a bitch. It’s hard to let walls down. It’s hard to be vulnerable. I’ve done bad things because of it. I’m not always rational. Like when I pulled a knife on my ex at the dinner table. Honestly, all I’m trying to say is, I’m not perfect. I’m scared. But that… Continue reading
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Despair Seeds and Hopeful Flowers
I reach for the stem, afraid to ask—can it exist? Small parachutes of silver, begging with tears—promise me it’s going to be okay. Cheeks full of air, a smile in the shadows, I release you in a whoosh, little seeds everywhere. I grab the next one—To letting go! And lie on my back. The sun… Continue reading
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