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thai inspired tofu & green bean
I rated 5/5 in my cookbook. Elements: Tofu marinade Stir Fry ingredients Stir Fry sauce: Notes: *if you’re recreating this, this is where you freestyle, the dressing is from Grocery Outlet, that shit cycles out quick. What sounds good? It’s for your tofu marinade. What I did: Continue reading
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On Being Human
Joy stained with sadness. Spreading. Searching in the mirror: Hello and goodbye, hello–echo–hello! Goodbye, goodbye. Internal guard. Distracting. Defensive. Avoiding what happened before… Faltering. A puddle. A wrinkle of sadness in everything, for in your noticing is its ending–begin and end, begin and end–what happens in between the beginning and ending? Peace into pieces. Or… Continue reading
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Lying in a Bed of Ants
I brought a large blanket and laid it out. I sat down and began thinking—about nothing in particular, nothing of interest. It was more of a noticing: green clouds of pond growth blooming to the surface, a swan bobbing for fish, trees, light green and white, shimmering in the wind, a blue sky. There was… Continue reading
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Already Full
The cup spills over from beneath the spigot. Moments spent receiving, while I keep track. Waiting for something to happen. Buying time. Pretending to pretend,I know what I’m doing. The cup remains, overflowing. Receiving, figuring—just give me a moment. Something comes next…But, wouldn’t I rather not? Shaking, I remove the glass from the endless outpouring andput it to my… Continue reading
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Served Cold
Fear. You son of a bitch. It’s hard to let walls down. It’s hard to be vulnerable. I’ve done bad things because of it. I’m not always rational. Like when I pulled a knife on my ex at the dinner table. Honestly, all I’m trying to say is, I’m not perfect. I’m scared. But that… Continue reading
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Despair Seeds and Hopeful Flowers
I reach for the stem, afraid to ask—can it exist? Small parachutes of silver, begging with tears—promise me it’s going to be okay. Cheeks full of air, a smile in the shadows, I release you in a whoosh, little seeds everywhere. I grab the next one—To letting go! And lie on my back. The sun… Continue reading
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Necessary
Sweating. Tossing, turning. Sleeping, alarm blaring, smoking. Snot covered, sniffling, screaming. Wiping, aimless shuffling. Searching. Avoid sharp objects. Avoid trees on walk with dog. Stumbling desire. Shifting, sweet. In line, hopeful. “Next!” Stepping forward, “An ice cream cone.” An end to suffering. Tapping screen, pausing– “The machine’s down, sorry.” Laughing. Continue reading
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Hail the Veil
Pirouettes through puddles, everything shines at once.Overwhelm me into laughter. What a wonderful world! So confusing, so straightforward.Glass walls, darkness insists, an illusion everlasting,spotlight moving. Listen to me! Fall down, get up.Smile at the sun, the rain, especially darkness.A beautiful reminder– Change! Golden memory, glittering sun, A bow in thanks forthe opportunity. Continue reading
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Becoming Madness
In a forest—crouching, stepping, carefully dodging long vines that hang like snakes from a canopy of trees above. The dirt is dark and wet. My boot crunches, but when I take my next step, I’m barefoot. Naked. Rain begins to fall. The clouds are alive with brooding darkness and raging thunder. Shadows are released when… Continue reading
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Just a Dance
Bright blue eyes. “Wanna dance?” Hands meet–warm, uncertain, holding questions both real and imagined. What’s your name? Where you from? Do you feel lost too? Music wraps around us, a pulse of hope and doubt guides each step we take. It’s just a dance. So dance, let the moment hold what words can’t. Overcome with… Continue reading
